Look Wider, Post Six

FUCK IT LOST IT ALL FOR THE BLOODY SECOND TIME!!! GRRRR BLOODY COMPUTER!!!

Right then... Here we go... AGAIN!!!! Hopefully this time I won't lose it... Dunno what happened the second time... the first time I accidently closed the tab... but the second time it just disapeared... =/

Aahhh Well...

I'll know what I wanna say off by heart soonage... Even though it's in my brain anyway...

For some reason it's now making everything doublespaced... =/ Weird...!

Right then... I went to the sinmar today with Aaron, Will and Munch. We watched The Ugly Truth. It was alright... not as great as I thought it would be.. But still good... Hilarious in a coupla palces actually :) It was good to see Will and Aaron... Well... Will I haven't seen for a month... Aaron I only saw on Monday... But yeahh.. still good to see him!!!

I was a bit stupid actually today... Cos I wore my white trousers... I figured that they are actually quite seethruu cos I wore black underwear (not that you really needed to know that...) And the STUPID clouds decided to let all their water out... and the rain made my trousers go even more seethruu than what they already were!!! :(

Arwww... Now I have noone to talk to cos Josh went out... :(

Urmm... what else did I say before...???

Ohh yeahh... I said about what happened at work today... Right thenn...

Well Sandra wanted to know when everyone's birthdays are, so she could write them on the calendar (a bit late in the year really... but better late than never...) But yeahh... so she asked Mum when hers is... then me... and then I decided that I would be useful and tell her when Andy's is... cos I only know John's, Liam's, my Mum's and Andy's is... (and mine obvs... although I once forgot when my birthday was!!!) and Yeahh.. well Mum had already told her, John is her 'boy'friend... and Liam is her nephew... so I could only be helpful by telling her Andy's... so I did.. and she was like 'oooo, how did you know that? It looks like someone has got a secret admirer' I was like 'NOOOOO!!!! I just happen to know, because it's exactly a month after mine, and it's on his facebook...' I'm quite good at remembering birthdays anyway... But yeahh then Andy happened to walk in... I was like Shiiit... then Sandra said 'ooo do you talk on Facebook' I was like ohmydays!!! Yes we do, sometimes... Hardly ever actually!!! Lol... I'm never gonna live it down now... Especially since Sandra seems to think that Andy has the hots for me... He's 21 though!!! !!! Noooo!!!

Just NO!!!

Ohmylife... Doesn't it just annoy the hell outta you when you try to talk to people and they just ignore you...?! It pisses me off... Tbh, I would much rather someone say that they are busy or don't want to talk to me... It just annoys me... I also would love it if I knew where I stood with people... Like what I am... how much I should talk to them and stuff... Y'know what I mean??? It just annoys me when people assume that I know where I am in their friend rankings and stuff... I suppose I do let myself get close to people... but it's just because, I suppose I wanna feel loved... I like being close to people... I like talking to people a lot... Y'know... Just about random shit that really doesn't matter... I like it when it's like that... more of a friendship... But then there's those times when you get really close to someone for a week or so... you say some things... you think you can trust them... but then they stop talking to you for like ages... and then when you mention it to them they say 'no, i've not noticed it being any different'. That really makes me upset... and then after that things get awkward because you think that they don't care... when they might actually care... but you don't know... I suppose I don't like things changing... I don't like it when I lose people, become less close... I remember all those friendships that I used to have... and it makes me upset... I don't like losing people... Depresses me really... I mean, the new people are amazing... but those old people can never be replaced... I just wish that I could stay friends with everybody... not lose touch... or just not get close to people in the first place... but I'm a confident person... So I do talk to anybody and everybody... I suppose being confident is scary to some people... Because some people I talk to seem to get scared by me talking to them like I talk to everybody else... I don't see whyy I should treat new people different to the old people... (not age old...) I'd rather them get to know and like (or not like) the real me, rather than put on an act... Although I did read in Munch's Lad Mag once that confidence is a real turn on for guys... so maybe being confident and talkativ and shit is a good thing???

Oh fuck it I'm babbling shit again...

I would also like to say that I think I need to change... My personality I mean...

I reckon I've written enough now, and that your eyes are gonna hurt...

Mark, I'm still waiting for that thing that's gonna get me back for me scaring you! :p

I would also like to say Hiiii Amber!!! I love you so much!!! Thank you soooo much for reading my blog everyday!!! :D

I would say that to Josh and Mark too... although I'm sure they would get pretty scared and freaked out if I told them that I love them a lot... so I'll just say thanks for reading everyday :D

I appreciate it :D

Need a cuppa now... :D

Lotsa Loves

Mwah...x