Well, the second post for today... I'm feeling pretty shit now... Don't wanna go out... My Dad's just got in a bloody massive piss with me again... I didn't even do anything... I told him straight out as well that I leave the dinner table before everyone else, because by the time I've finished eating an argument has usually started, and I don't wanna be dragged into it, or I don't wanna be there... So I just walk off and leave them too it... I told him that and he was like 'no, you just wanna go and talk to people on Facebook or MSN like normal.' But to be perfectly honest, it's not that I wanna go and talk to people... Because I can go without MSN and Facebook and stuff... I just like to talk to people to get my mind off of that bloody man and what he's sayin... I'd much rather be shut up in my room, away from his shouting and moaning... I seriously think that one of these days I'm gotta do something really bad... I'm not gonna publish it on here... because then you'll know more than I want you to know... But seriously... The last weekend was soooo good... Yeah, there were one or two moans, but he was nice to me... he treated me like a daughter should be treated... Like I always wanted to be treated by my Dad... And I thought that maybe... just maybe... things might be getting better... But no... it was obviously all just an act...
And I can't deal with his fucking mood changing every 5 minutes... I never know how to act around him... It does my head in... One minute he'll be perfectly fine, the next he'll be shouting his head off... It really upsets me... I wish that I could have some kind of mind-reading power... Cos that way, I'd be able to read his thoughts, and then I would know when to go away and leave him... And as much as I really don't like my sister, I hate the way that he has a go at her for handing him back the phone the other night... Rach had phoned her and Dad had answered the phone, called Jennifer and passed the phone to her... Jennifer had the conversation, and then went to give the phone back to Dad, and he had a massive go at her telling her it was 'late' and that she should be in bed... I was like 'woah, back off, she was only giving you the phone' and he then went and had a massive go at me saying that Jennifer doesn't need me to mother her!!! WTF??? I'm not mothering her, I was just telling him to back off... and all I got was shit from him for the rest of the night... >:( It really does my head in... Like I said, I'll probably end up doing something really stupid one day...
As you can probably tell... I'm not having a good day.
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